Saturday, February 21, 2009

Lost in Captivity....

I'm lost in captivity.

The cage is trapping almost all of me now. I can't pick the locks and the keys are nowhere to be found.

In the past, I rarely shared my intensely private thoughts and experiences on here. I don't share the worst of it with anyone. I've always been that way, choosing to keep everything (well, mostly everything), deep inside, away from the light of day.

I don't know where I'm going with this post, other than to let a little out....hoping that it might help. There's no one around tonight for me to call or text and who knows if I would even reach out in that way anyhow. I'm notoriously bad at asking for help. Help of any kind, but especially emotional/psychological shit. I'm supposed to be the one who has it all together, the one others come to with their problems. All the while, I'm falling apart.

I hope the pieces of me fit back together once I figure out how to escape my cage.

2 comments:

Jane Jones said...

you can always call on dancingcs or myself. :)

i understand where you're coming from, though, and have faith-you will make it out of that 'cage'.

:)
love ya.

Jane Jones said...

you're like a shady drug dealer..
you entice and intrigue me with your goods and then leave me wondering for days, fiending!!
IE: we need an entry, stat! :)

love ya.

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